so, i had a telephone interview yesterday. i felt very neutral about how it went. the interviewer seemed engaged, but not overly interested. i wasn’t nervous, but not entirely comfortable either. she’s very new to the company, so i didn’t expect her to have a lot of information about the company yet, so when she asked me “canned” interview questions, it didn’t phase me. (usually, when i get “canned” questions, i take it to mean that the interviewer is not taking a special interest in what i’m saying and therefore, going to default, HR-prepared questions to get through the interview).

a question she asked me about the worst [specific to this job-related] situation i’ve had to face threw me off a bit. i answered it honestly, recalling a situation where i had to help lead the team and organize client documents extremely quickly, yet accurately. we spoke for a little longer, then, parted ways. 

afterwards, i didn’t feel like it was a slam dunk or an air ball. it was just…a discussion with a stranger. 

well, as i was waking this morning, i had a dream that i was offered a job. the recruiter was very unclear about what the position was, and he was having a hard time explaining it. the second i woke up, i had a “shut up, becky”* moment. i realized several (at least 3) better answers for the question, all of which reflected my general knowledge of the specific position tasks, leadership, and organization. would have been perfect. i was even tempted to email her the 3 better answers this morning, but i decided that i would just have to let it be. 

i don’t know if i believe in fate or destiny, but i’m ok if i don’t get it. it’s not necessarily my dream job (i’d love to work for the firm, but this isn’t “the job i was born to do”) and i wasn’t completely on my game in the interview. i can accept that, just like i can accept that there could be more qualified people of whom would consider this position their dream job. so, que sera sera. 

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